the white light

Well it’s 1:34am when will you come back from the store,
More of this and I won't be around anymore,
Make your choice,
Win or lose it's life or death,
Lose me or save me.

I was supposed to be your baby,
Your child,
The love of your life,
When the doctor cut the cord he gave me the knife,
Now the powers' in my hands,
Give or take life.

I see a light,
god damn is that son of a bitch ever white,
Getting closer I'm running faster more than ever now,
Farther and farther and farther and farther away,
It's getting closer,
Now I'm tired and I'm scared,
This type of feeling cannot be compared,
To modern day technologies,
Won't somebody help,
Come and save me please.

The knife's a razor's edge,
Who ever knew skin was so thin,
Blood was so red,
And wrong was so right,
Life is the truth don't play into her lies,
It's it really that big a surprise,
Behind her spider webbed-glass eyes,
Was lost love,
Drugs and lies.

I see a light,
god damn is that son of a bitch ever white,
Getting closer I'm running faster more than ever now,
Farther and farther and farther and farther away,
It's getting closer,
Now I'm tired and I'm scared,
This type of feeling cannot be compared,
To modern day technologies,
Won't somebody help,
Come and save me please.

I need an angel more than ever,
God if you’re out there do me a solid and please make her stop it,
Tell that white is a losing fight,
She won't overcome it,
Now that she's done again and again and again and again and again.

I see a light,
god damn is that son of a bitch ever white,
Getting closer I'm running faster more than ever now,
Farther and farther and farther and farther away,
It's getting closer,
Now I'm tired and I'm scared,
This type of feeling cannot be compared,
To modern day technologies,
Won't somebody help,
Come and save me please.

This doesn't get easy,
This life-style is sleazy,
I've been running so hard my breathing is wheezy,
My knees are weak,
I'm gonna collapse,
She's picked the worst time to have her relapse,
I don't wanna do this,
Her decision is foolish.

I see a light,
god damn is that son of a bitch ever white,
Getting closer I'm running faster more than ever now,
Farther and farther and farther and farther away,
It's getting closer,
Now I'm tired and I'm scared,
This type of feeling cannot be compared,
To modern day technologies,
Won't somebody help,
Come and save me please.

You’re wasting away,
I fear you live to see Sunday,
90 pounds soaking wet,
Is any of this clicking yet?
You’re gonna lose your love,
Your house,
Money and life,
You might as well just grab a knife,
End it now,
Speak now or forever hold your peace.

I see a light,
god damn is that son of a bitch ever white,
Getting closer I'm running faster more than ever now,
Farther and farther and farther and farther away,
It's getting closer,
Now I'm tired and I'm scared,
This type of feeling cannot be compared,
To modern day technologies,
Won't somebody help,
Come and save me please.

Take me far away, I'm tired of running,
Sick of being scared,
Now I'm gunning,
For a new dawn,
I can't let this keep going on,
It's time to choose,
Make your move,
Think it through,
Love is and addiction too.

I see a light,
god damn is that son of a bitch ever white,
Getting closer I'm running faster more than ever now,
Farther and farther and farther and farther away,
It's getting closer,
Now I'm tired and I'm scared,
This type of feeling cannot be compared,
To modern day technologies,
Won't somebody help,
Come and save me please.

Your family's gone,
The white has won,
Why are you here,
You don't even care,
Both parents ,
How is that fair?
Tell me what am I to do,
I think I'm lost and I’m scared,
Now I'm running far beyond the air,
Past the stars and the moon,
I hope it's all over soon.

© Becky Baillargeon 2010