I wish I could feel

Death clutches my arm,
And now I stand before you,
there's nothing for me now,
you look me in the eyes,
and say you love me,
I prayed you'd open,
But you remain the same,
Now I'll never sing this song to you.

I wish I could feel,
Anything that's real,
My heart stopped beating so long ago,
And all I can say is.

I thought I could preach,
But nothings what it seems,
We can only teach,
What we know,
And all that I know is,
You don't need me anymore.

I wish I could feel,
Anything that's real,
My heart stopped beating so long ago,
And all I can say is.

you had your fun,
Now you want out like it was a game,
And all the voices,
Scream and shout your name,
Now I'll never be the same,
And it brings me back to pain.

I wish I could feel,
Anything that's real,
My heart stopped beating so long ago,
And all I can say is.

I have a heart I won't be needing,
I'll wear this smile,
Play it off like it's all fine,
When all I want is you to be mine.

I wish I could feel,
Anything that's real,
My heart stopped beating so long ago,
And all I can say is.

If there is a god,
Let him hear me now,
Go fuck yourself,
All you bring is grief and shame.

I wish I could feel,
Anything that's real,
My heart stopped beating so long ago,
And all I can say is.

I thought I could preach,
But nothings what it seems,
We can only teach,
What we have been shown,
And all that I know is,
You don't need me anymore.

I wish I could feel,
Anything that's real,
My heart stopped beating so long ago,
And all I can say is.

You had your fun,
Now you want out like it was a game,
And all the voices,
Scream and shout your name,
Now I'll never be the same,
And it brings me back to pain.

I wish I could feel,
Anything that's real,
My heart stopped beating so long ago,
And all I can say is.

This illusion plagues my mind,
Leaving it black,
Within you I thought I could find some decency,
Shattered and torn you crucified me,
My mind and body are worn,
Yet here I stand,
This departed soul will rise again,
I won't give up the fight, I just want you to know,
Love can't last forever,
When you rip off the limbs of your loved one.

© Becky Baillargeon 2010