Father who

Abandonment,
Rejection,
And pure hatred,
These three things are ,
The only things ,
I will ever learn from you,
You weren't there,
Showing you care,
For you I have no love to spare.

My blood,
Half of me,
Given me torment,
Instead of glee,
Why you’re not there,
I don't know,
When I have kids,
Love I will show,
I will not run,
For I am the man I didn't know.

I used to rage,
Portraying my hate,
But that won't get me,
Through that great golden gate,
Since when is never better than late?
Sure abandonment is something I couldn't anticipate.

My blood,
Half of me,
Given me torment,
Instead of glee,
Why you’re not there,
I don't know,
When I have kids,
Love I will show,
I will not run,
For I am the man I didn't know.

Your carelessness is something I cannot take,
So should you hear this let me know,
Please won't you show,
A side of you I never got to know.

My blood,
Half of me,
Given me torment,
Instead of glee,
Why you’re not there,
I don't know,
When I have kids,
Love I will show,
I will not run,
For I am the man I didn't know.

Hate turned into love,
But abandonment remains,
The rejection the same,
I am the man you never could be,
Why can't you see,
I needed you,
I guess you had no use for me,
Life's a bitch,
So are you,
When people say father,
I say who?

My blood,
Half of me,
Given me torment,
Instead of glee,
Why you’re not there,
I don't know,
When I have kids,
Love I will show,
I will not run,
For I am the man I didn't know.

© Becky Baillargeon 2010