You say what you want,
And when you want it,
You say you need it,
To get it from me,
You know I'll give it all,
So willingly.
My body's aching,
My mind is stirred,
Can't face the day with my memories blurred,
Just tear out my heart,
I don’t need it anymore,
If you’re not coming back.
This why I hate to say,
Those three words,
Everyday,
And only time will tell,
If you meant it,
Or if I'm just a notch,
So if you love,
Why neglect me,
I said I love you like I meant it,
And I do.
My body's aching,
My mind is stirred,
Can't face the day with my memories blurred,
Just tear out my heart,
I don’t need it anymore,
If you’re not coming back.
The only person,
I could be with,
Is you,
But you won't have,
Not for tonight,
You know what love is?
Not for the weak,
How can I tell you,
If you won’t even speak.
My body's aching,
My mind is stirred,
Can't face the day with my memories blurred,
Just tear out my heart,
I don’t need it anymore,
If you’re not coming back.
So cut me loose,
Or hang me up to dry,
Because with this path,
I will surely die,
So say it again like you mean it,
Or disappear into the night,
Your only options,
And I’m not gunna fight.
My body's aching,
My mind is stirred,
Can't face the day with my memories blurred,
Just tear out my heart,
I don’t need it anymore,
If you’re not coming back.
So quickly choose,
It's not a game,
But it's win or lose,
You've got me now,
I'm gunna die,
But I don't know how,
Is it at your hand,
Or something only time can mend.
My body's aching,
My mind is stirred,
Can't face the day with my memories blurred,
Just tear out my heart,
I don’t need it anymore,
If you’re not coming back.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
30.3.10
24.3.10
Tear your heart out
Death will tear your heart out,
When faith,
Isn't present,
With every moan and shout,
She will betray,
The love that you portray,
Your precious love,
Won't last another fucking day.
Just close your eyes,
Pay no attention to the fear inside,
Look to the skies,
And send yourself back home.
Death will tear your heart out,
When faith,
Isn't present,
With every moan and shout,
She will betray,
The love that you portray,
Your precious love,
Won't last another fucking day.
He wears his heart,
On his sleeve,
Never once,
Did he ever think she'd leave,
So unfaithful,
Such disgrace,
Her un-loyalties,
Was cast upon him,
And now he's going home.
Death will tear your heart out,
When faith,
Isn't present,
With every moan and shout,
She will betray,
The love that you portray,
Your precious love,
Won't last another fucking day.
In his eyes,
He's already,
Been to hell and back,
It's no surprise,
(It's no surprise)
These are the actions of her lies.
Death will tear your heart out,
When faith,
Isn't present,
With every moan and shout,
She will betray,
The love that you portray,
Your precious love,
Won't last another fucking day.
Now his life,
Is taken,
By his wife,
That four finger slut,
She pulled the trigger,
With her words.
Death will tear your heart out,
When faith,
Isn't present,
With every moan and shout,
She will betray,
The love that you portray,
Your precious love,
Won't last another fucking day.
So rip her heart out,
And bring it back to me,
So I can hold it in her face,
And scream and shout,
She's such a fucking disgrace.
Death will tear your heart out,
When faith,
Isn't present,
With every moan and shout,
She will betray,
The love that you portray,
Your precious love,
Won't last another fucking day.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
When faith,
Isn't present,
With every moan and shout,
She will betray,
The love that you portray,
Your precious love,
Won't last another fucking day.
Just close your eyes,
Pay no attention to the fear inside,
Look to the skies,
And send yourself back home.
Death will tear your heart out,
When faith,
Isn't present,
With every moan and shout,
She will betray,
The love that you portray,
Your precious love,
Won't last another fucking day.
He wears his heart,
On his sleeve,
Never once,
Did he ever think she'd leave,
So unfaithful,
Such disgrace,
Her un-loyalties,
Was cast upon him,
And now he's going home.
Death will tear your heart out,
When faith,
Isn't present,
With every moan and shout,
She will betray,
The love that you portray,
Your precious love,
Won't last another fucking day.
In his eyes,
He's already,
Been to hell and back,
It's no surprise,
(It's no surprise)
These are the actions of her lies.
Death will tear your heart out,
When faith,
Isn't present,
With every moan and shout,
She will betray,
The love that you portray,
Your precious love,
Won't last another fucking day.
Now his life,
Is taken,
By his wife,
That four finger slut,
She pulled the trigger,
With her words.
Death will tear your heart out,
When faith,
Isn't present,
With every moan and shout,
She will betray,
The love that you portray,
Your precious love,
Won't last another fucking day.
So rip her heart out,
And bring it back to me,
So I can hold it in her face,
And scream and shout,
She's such a fucking disgrace.
Death will tear your heart out,
When faith,
Isn't present,
With every moan and shout,
She will betray,
The love that you portray,
Your precious love,
Won't last another fucking day.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
I .......
He walks and he sees her,
When he greets her she just turns her back on him and inside he's screaming,
I love you,
I hate you,
I need you,
I sleep you,
I breathe you,
And I can't forget about you,
And all he ever wanted was for her to be with him,
But now that time has passed and he will never move on.
(I)
Love you,
(I)
Hate you,
(I)
Need you,
(I)
Sleep you,
(I)
Breathe you,
(And I)
Just can't forget about you.
When she sees him he greets her and it kills him inside to know she doesn't love him at all,
And when all he's ever wanted is for her to scream out,
I love you,
I hate you,
I need you,
I sleep you,
I breathe you,
And I can't forget about you,
And like a fountain drips wet with water he and her were meant to be together but she'll never,
( Scream).
(I)
Love you,
(I)
Hate you,
(I)
Need you,
(I)
Sleep you,
(I)
Breathe you,
(And I)
Just can't forget about you.
So now that he's moved on when she sees him she greets him and he just turns his back,
But she wants him to want her,
( And so now she's screaming ).
(I)
Love you,
(I)
Hate you,
(I)
Need you,
(I)
Sleep you,
(I)
Breathe you,
(And I)
Just can't forget about you.
He sees right through her,
He knows she won't show the same way he felt so long ago,
So now he's happy with another girl and she's singing.
(I)
Love you,
(I)
Hate you,
(I)
Need you,
(I)
Sleep you,
(I)
Breathe you,
(And I)
Just can't forget about you.
She's the best thing he's ever seen and she feels the same,
When they walk,
(Holding her hand in his),
And never showing shame,
And when they kiss it's like fireworks going off in his chest,
His heart with a thunderous sound while it beats,
With a rhythmic love.
(I)
Love you,
(I)
Hate you,
(I)
Need you,
(I)
Sleep you,
(I)
Breathe you,
(And I)
Just can't forget about you.
So he says his goodbyes to the girl,
While she's left to watch him and his girl walk away,
Never looking back.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
When he greets her she just turns her back on him and inside he's screaming,
I love you,
I hate you,
I need you,
I sleep you,
I breathe you,
And I can't forget about you,
And all he ever wanted was for her to be with him,
But now that time has passed and he will never move on.
(I)
Love you,
(I)
Hate you,
(I)
Need you,
(I)
Sleep you,
(I)
Breathe you,
(And I)
Just can't forget about you.
When she sees him he greets her and it kills him inside to know she doesn't love him at all,
And when all he's ever wanted is for her to scream out,
I love you,
I hate you,
I need you,
I sleep you,
I breathe you,
And I can't forget about you,
And like a fountain drips wet with water he and her were meant to be together but she'll never,
( Scream).
(I)
Love you,
(I)
Hate you,
(I)
Need you,
(I)
Sleep you,
(I)
Breathe you,
(And I)
Just can't forget about you.
So now that he's moved on when she sees him she greets him and he just turns his back,
But she wants him to want her,
( And so now she's screaming ).
(I)
Love you,
(I)
Hate you,
(I)
Need you,
(I)
Sleep you,
(I)
Breathe you,
(And I)
Just can't forget about you.
He sees right through her,
He knows she won't show the same way he felt so long ago,
So now he's happy with another girl and she's singing.
(I)
Love you,
(I)
Hate you,
(I)
Need you,
(I)
Sleep you,
(I)
Breathe you,
(And I)
Just can't forget about you.
She's the best thing he's ever seen and she feels the same,
When they walk,
(Holding her hand in his),
And never showing shame,
And when they kiss it's like fireworks going off in his chest,
His heart with a thunderous sound while it beats,
With a rhythmic love.
(I)
Love you,
(I)
Hate you,
(I)
Need you,
(I)
Sleep you,
(I)
Breathe you,
(And I)
Just can't forget about you.
So he says his goodbyes to the girl,
While she's left to watch him and his girl walk away,
Never looking back.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
I will take a pill
You’re just so beautiful but I just can't do this anymore,
The insomnia,
It's killing me and so you see the reason why I cry,
You lift me up to such heights only to loosen your grip and let me fall.
(So I will),
Take a pill,
(To stop my bleeding heart),
Pull a trigger,
(Go out with a bang),
Plunge the steel deep inside,
(Only to hide what still remains),
And I will let all these angles of depression,
Swallow me whole just to show you a darker side of me you didn't know.
It was soon after dating I started debating,
The fact was its true,
All the things said behind me,
So cowardly they hide,
The feelings won't subside,
What I feel inside is burning,
Longing to bury the past as I run with the ground falling from underneath my feet as you lift me up to these great heights ( don't look down).
(So I will),
Take a pill,
(To stop my bleeding heart),
Pull a trigger,
(Go out with a bang),
Plunge the steel deep inside,
(Only to hide what still remains),
And I will let all these angles of depression,
Swallow me whole just to show you a darker side of me you didn't know.
None of this matters,
Go rest your weary head I'll be just fine,
I only have to bury my heart soon to be left behind (by you).
(So I will),
Take a pill,
(To stop my bleeding heart),
Pull a trigger,
(Go out with a bang),
Plunge the steel deep inside,
(Only to hide what still remains),
And I will let all these angles of depression,
Swallow me whole just to show you a darker side of me you didn't know.
But for now things remain,
And still I feel the pain inside,
And with nothing to hide I give my thoughts,
My feelings,
My words and my bloody heart to you,
(So just promise one thing),
Don't loosen your grip on me.
(I love ) you,
(I love) you,
I love you.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
The insomnia,
It's killing me and so you see the reason why I cry,
You lift me up to such heights only to loosen your grip and let me fall.
(So I will),
Take a pill,
(To stop my bleeding heart),
Pull a trigger,
(Go out with a bang),
Plunge the steel deep inside,
(Only to hide what still remains),
And I will let all these angles of depression,
Swallow me whole just to show you a darker side of me you didn't know.
It was soon after dating I started debating,
The fact was its true,
All the things said behind me,
So cowardly they hide,
The feelings won't subside,
What I feel inside is burning,
Longing to bury the past as I run with the ground falling from underneath my feet as you lift me up to these great heights ( don't look down).
(So I will),
Take a pill,
(To stop my bleeding heart),
Pull a trigger,
(Go out with a bang),
Plunge the steel deep inside,
(Only to hide what still remains),
And I will let all these angles of depression,
Swallow me whole just to show you a darker side of me you didn't know.
None of this matters,
Go rest your weary head I'll be just fine,
I only have to bury my heart soon to be left behind (by you).
(So I will),
Take a pill,
(To stop my bleeding heart),
Pull a trigger,
(Go out with a bang),
Plunge the steel deep inside,
(Only to hide what still remains),
And I will let all these angles of depression,
Swallow me whole just to show you a darker side of me you didn't know.
But for now things remain,
And still I feel the pain inside,
And with nothing to hide I give my thoughts,
My feelings,
My words and my bloody heart to you,
(So just promise one thing),
Don't loosen your grip on me.
(I love ) you,
(I love) you,
I love you.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
23.3.10
that't it you've crossed the line
All these thoughts,
This pain I feel,
All this hate,
It must be real,
Never knowing who I am,
What I've become,
It won’t matter when I’m done,
With you.
That's it,
Your time has come,
The way you came in,
You will leave this world,
Just the same,
What a shame you’re a disgrace to the name,
Your death will be in vain.
All these thoughts,
This pain I feel,
All this hate,
It must be real,
Never knowing who I am,
What I've become,
It won't matter when I’m done,
With you.
You've escaped my mind,
You've put upon my heart a bind-ing rope,
Time for me to cut me free,
Soon to be,
Above and beyond you,
You’re so selfish,
I just can't take your absence from my life.
All these thoughts,
This pain I feel,
All this hate,
It must be real,
Never knowing who I am,
What I've become,
It won’t matter when I’m done,
With you.
Your soon to be forgotten society will move on
It will move on,
We're better off,
Without you,
Long gone,
I am done,
With you,
I am done with you.
All these thoughts,
This pain I feel,
All this hate,
It must be real,
Never knowing who I am,
What I've become,
It won’t matter when I’m done,
With you.
You hypocrite,
You piece of shit,
I am done with you,
You will never know,
Never know,
Never know,
Who I am,
Who I’ve become,
I won't allow it,
I am done.
All these thoughts,
This pain I feel,
All this hate,
It must be real,
Never knowing who I am,
What I've become,
It won’t matter when I’m done,
With you.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
This pain I feel,
All this hate,
It must be real,
Never knowing who I am,
What I've become,
It won’t matter when I’m done,
With you.
That's it,
Your time has come,
The way you came in,
You will leave this world,
Just the same,
What a shame you’re a disgrace to the name,
Your death will be in vain.
All these thoughts,
This pain I feel,
All this hate,
It must be real,
Never knowing who I am,
What I've become,
It won't matter when I’m done,
With you.
You've escaped my mind,
You've put upon my heart a bind-ing rope,
Time for me to cut me free,
Soon to be,
Above and beyond you,
You’re so selfish,
I just can't take your absence from my life.
All these thoughts,
This pain I feel,
All this hate,
It must be real,
Never knowing who I am,
What I've become,
It won’t matter when I’m done,
With you.
Your soon to be forgotten society will move on
It will move on,
We're better off,
Without you,
Long gone,
I am done,
With you,
I am done with you.
All these thoughts,
This pain I feel,
All this hate,
It must be real,
Never knowing who I am,
What I've become,
It won’t matter when I’m done,
With you.
You hypocrite,
You piece of shit,
I am done with you,
You will never know,
Never know,
Never know,
Who I am,
Who I’ve become,
I won't allow it,
I am done.
All these thoughts,
This pain I feel,
All this hate,
It must be real,
Never knowing who I am,
What I've become,
It won’t matter when I’m done,
With you.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
red is your drug
When the drugs come out,
The little girl hides,
Here in solitude,
She will confide,
With a razor blade that will separate the skin.
Red is your drug,
It tells you lies,
Be careful,
For it decides who lives,
And who dies,
Red is not the truth,
Not it is nothing but lies,
Red is not the truth,
You musn't look to the skies.
The red water that glistened lies,
That tear drop that fell from her eyes,
As she looked to the skies and said,
I am home.
Red is your drug,
It tells you lies,
Be careful,
For it decides who lives,
And who dies,
Red is not the truth,
Not it is nothing but lies,
Red is not the truth,
You musn't look to the skies.
But little girl rest your weary head you've come a long way,
And you've got a lot more to go,
With pretty bracelets the scars won't show.
Red is your drug,
It tells you lies,
Be careful,
For it decides who lives,
And who dies,
Red is not the truth,
Not it is nothing but lies,
Red is not the truth,
You musn't look to the skies.
If you look to the skies in seek of help,
Soon you will hear a blood-curdling yelp,
And so you have turned to the drug and the lies,
Lay down your head and close your eyes.
Red is your drug,
It tells you lies,
Be careful,
For it decides who lives,
And who dies,
Red is not the truth,
Not it is nothing but lies,
Red is not the truth,
You musn't look to the skies.
Within eyes wide shut you find truth,
And the answer my dear isn't hanging from a noose,
Within these lies I will be there to cut you lose,
And set you free,
So long as you realize you do have me.
Red is your drug,
It tells you lies,
Be careful,
For it decides who lives,
And who dies,
Red is not the truth,
Not it is nothing but lies,
Red is not the truth,
You musn't look to the skies.
For should you decide to confide in me,
You soon will see,
There is truth in me,
And within me you will find truth,
Not the like the media,
The kind you buy from a booth.
Red is your drug,
It tells you lies,
Be careful,
For it decides who lives,
And who dies,
Red is not the truth,
Not it is nothing but lies,
Red is not the truth,
You musn't look to the skies.
Red is your drug,
It tells you lies,
Be careful,
For it decides who lives,
And who dies,
Red is not the truth,
Not it is nothing but lies,
Red is not the truth,
You musn't look to the skies,
Red is not truth,
The one who trusts,
Is the one that dies,
Red is nothing,
But a bunch of lies.
Red is your drug,
It tells you lies,
Be careful,
For it decides who lives,
And who dies,
Red is not the truth,
Not it is nothing but lies,
Red is not the truth,
You musn't look to the skies.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
The little girl hides,
Here in solitude,
She will confide,
With a razor blade that will separate the skin.
Red is your drug,
It tells you lies,
Be careful,
For it decides who lives,
And who dies,
Red is not the truth,
Not it is nothing but lies,
Red is not the truth,
You musn't look to the skies.
The red water that glistened lies,
That tear drop that fell from her eyes,
As she looked to the skies and said,
I am home.
Red is your drug,
It tells you lies,
Be careful,
For it decides who lives,
And who dies,
Red is not the truth,
Not it is nothing but lies,
Red is not the truth,
You musn't look to the skies.
But little girl rest your weary head you've come a long way,
And you've got a lot more to go,
With pretty bracelets the scars won't show.
Red is your drug,
It tells you lies,
Be careful,
For it decides who lives,
And who dies,
Red is not the truth,
Not it is nothing but lies,
Red is not the truth,
You musn't look to the skies.
If you look to the skies in seek of help,
Soon you will hear a blood-curdling yelp,
And so you have turned to the drug and the lies,
Lay down your head and close your eyes.
Red is your drug,
It tells you lies,
Be careful,
For it decides who lives,
And who dies,
Red is not the truth,
Not it is nothing but lies,
Red is not the truth,
You musn't look to the skies.
Within eyes wide shut you find truth,
And the answer my dear isn't hanging from a noose,
Within these lies I will be there to cut you lose,
And set you free,
So long as you realize you do have me.
Red is your drug,
It tells you lies,
Be careful,
For it decides who lives,
And who dies,
Red is not the truth,
Not it is nothing but lies,
Red is not the truth,
You musn't look to the skies.
For should you decide to confide in me,
You soon will see,
There is truth in me,
And within me you will find truth,
Not the like the media,
The kind you buy from a booth.
Red is your drug,
It tells you lies,
Be careful,
For it decides who lives,
And who dies,
Red is not the truth,
Not it is nothing but lies,
Red is not the truth,
You musn't look to the skies.
Red is your drug,
It tells you lies,
Be careful,
For it decides who lives,
And who dies,
Red is not the truth,
Not it is nothing but lies,
Red is not the truth,
You musn't look to the skies,
Red is not truth,
The one who trusts,
Is the one that dies,
Red is nothing,
But a bunch of lies.
Red is your drug,
It tells you lies,
Be careful,
For it decides who lives,
And who dies,
Red is not the truth,
Not it is nothing but lies,
Red is not the truth,
You musn't look to the skies.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
someone to lead me back on
We've both bled,
Our war wounds mental,
We've had times to remember,
Had times to forget,
But there's something I will tell you,
It's something I regret,
Letting you down,
Letting you push me around,
I did everything for you,
But my heart you did break,
I'm trying for you,
I’m crying for you,
I know what I have to do.
I need someone to lead me back to you,
Now that I've got something to hold onto,
My god I think I love you,
I think I need you,
And nothing would make me sleep better than calling you mine.
When I remember the good times it brings a tear to my eyes,
Remember that feeling?
They told us it was lies but we,
Proved them wrong,
But now it's over and I've been,
Missing you for so long,
I will have you,
Will you have me?
We'll be as happy as can be,
It'd be just us two boy,
You and me.
I need someone to lead me back to you,
Now that I've got something to hold onto,
My god I think I love you,
I think I need you,
And nothing would make me sleep better than calling you mine.
In life all good things must come to an end,
But they restart and thrive once again,
So how about it?
Just one last shot,
I promise I'll give it all that I've got.
I need someone to lead me back to you,
Now that I've got something to hold onto,
My god I think I love you,
I think I need you,
And nothing would make me sleep better than calling you mine.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
Our war wounds mental,
We've had times to remember,
Had times to forget,
But there's something I will tell you,
It's something I regret,
Letting you down,
Letting you push me around,
I did everything for you,
But my heart you did break,
I'm trying for you,
I’m crying for you,
I know what I have to do.
I need someone to lead me back to you,
Now that I've got something to hold onto,
My god I think I love you,
I think I need you,
And nothing would make me sleep better than calling you mine.
When I remember the good times it brings a tear to my eyes,
Remember that feeling?
They told us it was lies but we,
Proved them wrong,
But now it's over and I've been,
Missing you for so long,
I will have you,
Will you have me?
We'll be as happy as can be,
It'd be just us two boy,
You and me.
I need someone to lead me back to you,
Now that I've got something to hold onto,
My god I think I love you,
I think I need you,
And nothing would make me sleep better than calling you mine.
In life all good things must come to an end,
But they restart and thrive once again,
So how about it?
Just one last shot,
I promise I'll give it all that I've got.
I need someone to lead me back to you,
Now that I've got something to hold onto,
My god I think I love you,
I think I need you,
And nothing would make me sleep better than calling you mine.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
22.3.10
father you weren't there to catch me
Dear father,
Why aren't you here?
Was it from fear?
Tell me,
Tell me please mommy who was he?
Was he a glorious man?
A generous man?
Was he kind hearted?
Did he love me?
You weren't there to catch me when I was falling,
You could never carry the load I’m hauling,
Going through life not knowing,
Who you are,
Or if you care,
Why did you make me it you weren't gunna take me?
Was it a dare?
I am here standing in the sandbox,
The little girls' mums and dads pick them up and take them home,
I see my mom but where's my dad,
Nothing would make me more glad,
Than to look upon his face.
You weren't there to catch me when I was falling,
You could never carry the load I’m hauling,
Going through life not knowing,
Who you are,
Or if you care,
Why did you make me it you weren't gunna take me?
Was it a dare?
Why you’re not here remains a mystery,
Why weren't you in my life history,
I want to look upon your face,
To call you a disgrace who gave me life,
This is a path I must walk alone,
My father is a name ,
His face is unknown,
By me,
Too young to close my eyes and see his face now,
I have forgotten.
You weren't there to catch me when I was falling,
You could never carry the load I’m hauling,
Going through life not knowing,
Who you are,
Or if you care,
Why did you make me it you weren't gunna take me?
Was it a dare?
Well someone explain to me why you’re not here?
I've dealt with fear,
Alone,
All I was for Christmas is my father,
But should I bother?
You weren't there to guild me,
It seems as though you despise me,
Have you forgotten,
Or just given up on me?
Not a card,
Nor a visit,
Your my father?
I call bullshit.
You weren't there to catch me when I was falling,
You could never carry the load I’m hauling,
Going through life not knowing,
Who you are,
Or if you care,
Why did you make me it you weren't gunna take me?
Was it a dare?
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
Why aren't you here?
Was it from fear?
Tell me,
Tell me please mommy who was he?
Was he a glorious man?
A generous man?
Was he kind hearted?
Did he love me?
You weren't there to catch me when I was falling,
You could never carry the load I’m hauling,
Going through life not knowing,
Who you are,
Or if you care,
Why did you make me it you weren't gunna take me?
Was it a dare?
I am here standing in the sandbox,
The little girls' mums and dads pick them up and take them home,
I see my mom but where's my dad,
Nothing would make me more glad,
Than to look upon his face.
You weren't there to catch me when I was falling,
You could never carry the load I’m hauling,
Going through life not knowing,
Who you are,
Or if you care,
Why did you make me it you weren't gunna take me?
Was it a dare?
Why you’re not here remains a mystery,
Why weren't you in my life history,
I want to look upon your face,
To call you a disgrace who gave me life,
This is a path I must walk alone,
My father is a name ,
His face is unknown,
By me,
Too young to close my eyes and see his face now,
I have forgotten.
You weren't there to catch me when I was falling,
You could never carry the load I’m hauling,
Going through life not knowing,
Who you are,
Or if you care,
Why did you make me it you weren't gunna take me?
Was it a dare?
Well someone explain to me why you’re not here?
I've dealt with fear,
Alone,
All I was for Christmas is my father,
But should I bother?
You weren't there to guild me,
It seems as though you despise me,
Have you forgotten,
Or just given up on me?
Not a card,
Nor a visit,
Your my father?
I call bullshit.
You weren't there to catch me when I was falling,
You could never carry the load I’m hauling,
Going through life not knowing,
Who you are,
Or if you care,
Why did you make me it you weren't gunna take me?
Was it a dare?
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
13.3.10
Father who
Abandonment,
Rejection,
And pure hatred,
These three things are ,
The only things ,
I will ever learn from you,
You weren't there,
Showing you care,
For you I have no love to spare.
My blood,
Half of me,
Given me torment,
Instead of glee,
Why you’re not there,
I don't know,
When I have kids,
Love I will show,
I will not run,
For I am the man I didn't know.
I used to rage,
Portraying my hate,
But that won't get me,
Through that great golden gate,
Since when is never better than late?
Sure abandonment is something I couldn't anticipate.
My blood,
Half of me,
Given me torment,
Instead of glee,
Why you’re not there,
I don't know,
When I have kids,
Love I will show,
I will not run,
For I am the man I didn't know.
Your carelessness is something I cannot take,
So should you hear this let me know,
Please won't you show,
A side of you I never got to know.
My blood,
Half of me,
Given me torment,
Instead of glee,
Why you’re not there,
I don't know,
When I have kids,
Love I will show,
I will not run,
For I am the man I didn't know.
Hate turned into love,
But abandonment remains,
The rejection the same,
I am the man you never could be,
Why can't you see,
I needed you,
I guess you had no use for me,
Life's a bitch,
So are you,
When people say father,
I say who?
My blood,
Half of me,
Given me torment,
Instead of glee,
Why you’re not there,
I don't know,
When I have kids,
Love I will show,
I will not run,
For I am the man I didn't know.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
Rejection,
And pure hatred,
These three things are ,
The only things ,
I will ever learn from you,
You weren't there,
Showing you care,
For you I have no love to spare.
My blood,
Half of me,
Given me torment,
Instead of glee,
Why you’re not there,
I don't know,
When I have kids,
Love I will show,
I will not run,
For I am the man I didn't know.
I used to rage,
Portraying my hate,
But that won't get me,
Through that great golden gate,
Since when is never better than late?
Sure abandonment is something I couldn't anticipate.
My blood,
Half of me,
Given me torment,
Instead of glee,
Why you’re not there,
I don't know,
When I have kids,
Love I will show,
I will not run,
For I am the man I didn't know.
Your carelessness is something I cannot take,
So should you hear this let me know,
Please won't you show,
A side of you I never got to know.
My blood,
Half of me,
Given me torment,
Instead of glee,
Why you’re not there,
I don't know,
When I have kids,
Love I will show,
I will not run,
For I am the man I didn't know.
Hate turned into love,
But abandonment remains,
The rejection the same,
I am the man you never could be,
Why can't you see,
I needed you,
I guess you had no use for me,
Life's a bitch,
So are you,
When people say father,
I say who?
My blood,
Half of me,
Given me torment,
Instead of glee,
Why you’re not there,
I don't know,
When I have kids,
Love I will show,
I will not run,
For I am the man I didn't know.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
create sin
Upon indulging himself in queer tasting floor sugar,
Now looking in a hole,
He will reach in his hand,
his long lost little brother,
Shore leave for a short time,
Upon invitation he arises,
The green man loves surprises,
Loves surprises.
When you’re lost,
And alone,
When there's nobody home,
Just look to the hills where he built up his house,
And if you’re lucky he'll welcome you in,
With warmth and good intentions,
He will create sin.
He sings lock up your daughters,
Tonight general,
There'll be trouble in the maiden’s quarters,
Maybe you can come and tuck me in tonight,
Sailor.
When you’re lost,
And alone,
When there's nobody home,
Just look to the hills where he built up his house,
And if you’re lucky he'll welcome you in,
With warmth and good intentions,
He will create sin.
So the great Kenneth’s returned from war,
The spread his wild oats,
What a brilliant man,
He sings all the right notes,
When a slumberous sailor should come home for dinner,
The older brother looks like a winner.
When you’re lost,
And alone,
When there's nobody home,
Just look to the hills where he built up his house,
And if you’re lucky he'll welcome you in,
With warmth and good intentions,
He will create sin.
So lock up you daughters and misplace you wife,
For his salad fingers shall bring an end to their life,
No means you no harm,
No he means you no pain,
Why try and fight him what have you to gain?
When you’re lost,
And alone,
When there's nobody home,
Just look to the hills where he built up his house,
And if you’re lucky he'll welcome you in,
With warmth and good intentions,
He will create sin.
When you’re lost,
And alone,
When there's nobody home,
Just look to the hills where he built up his house,
And if you’re lucky he'll welcome you in,
With warmth and good intentions,
He will create sin.
If you’re lost,
He will create sin,
He will create sin.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
Now looking in a hole,
He will reach in his hand,
his long lost little brother,
Shore leave for a short time,
Upon invitation he arises,
The green man loves surprises,
Loves surprises.
When you’re lost,
And alone,
When there's nobody home,
Just look to the hills where he built up his house,
And if you’re lucky he'll welcome you in,
With warmth and good intentions,
He will create sin.
He sings lock up your daughters,
Tonight general,
There'll be trouble in the maiden’s quarters,
Maybe you can come and tuck me in tonight,
Sailor.
When you’re lost,
And alone,
When there's nobody home,
Just look to the hills where he built up his house,
And if you’re lucky he'll welcome you in,
With warmth and good intentions,
He will create sin.
So the great Kenneth’s returned from war,
The spread his wild oats,
What a brilliant man,
He sings all the right notes,
When a slumberous sailor should come home for dinner,
The older brother looks like a winner.
When you’re lost,
And alone,
When there's nobody home,
Just look to the hills where he built up his house,
And if you’re lucky he'll welcome you in,
With warmth and good intentions,
He will create sin.
So lock up you daughters and misplace you wife,
For his salad fingers shall bring an end to their life,
No means you no harm,
No he means you no pain,
Why try and fight him what have you to gain?
When you’re lost,
And alone,
When there's nobody home,
Just look to the hills where he built up his house,
And if you’re lucky he'll welcome you in,
With warmth and good intentions,
He will create sin.
When you’re lost,
And alone,
When there's nobody home,
Just look to the hills where he built up his house,
And if you’re lucky he'll welcome you in,
With warmth and good intentions,
He will create sin.
If you’re lost,
He will create sin,
He will create sin.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
scream into this mic
So you've come to hear me scream,
So loud it feels just like a dream,
I will put you to sleep,
Softly serenading in your ears,
Come forth and whisper all your fears.
I will scream into this mic,
And when I'm done I'll leave u begging for more,
I'll make you a little show whore,
And what’s more I've just begun,
It'll be a little while before I'm done,
So hold on,
This is what the edge of your seat was made for,
We are the ones you adore,
Lighting up the stage,
Release all your rage,
In this pit.
I will feed it to the crowd,
I wanna hear you scream loud,
Push moshes aren't aloud,
Throw down or go home,
Before u get punched in the dome.
I will scream into this mic,
And when I'm done I'll leave u begging for more,
I'll make you a little show whore,
And what’s more I've just begun,
It'll be a little while before I'm done,
So hold on,
This is what the edge of your seat was made for,
We are the ones you adore,
Lighting up the stage,
Release all your rage,
In this pit.
Don't be a pussy,
Little wussie go home and cry to your mom,
I want this pit like Vietnam,
Like a war you can't control,
I want you screaming for more,
Now you’re a little show whore,
And I control you with this mic,
I'll make you dance when and how I like.
I will scream into this mic,
And when I'm done I'll leave u begging for more,
I'll make you a little show whore,
And what’s more I've just begun,
It'll be a little while before I'm done,
So hold on,
This is what the edge of your seat was made for,
We are the ones you adore,
Lighting up the stage,
Release all your rage,
In this pit.
You’re all my puppets,
I am your master,
Now I command you mosh faster,
Throw your bodies to the floor and for,
You all must bleed when I end this show.
I will scream into this mic,
And when I'm done I'll leave u begging for more,
I'll make you a little show whore,
And what’s more I've just begun,
It'll be a little while before I'm done,
So hold on,
This is what the edge of your seat was made for,
We are the ones you adore,
Lighting up the stage,
Release all your rage,
In this pit.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
So loud it feels just like a dream,
I will put you to sleep,
Softly serenading in your ears,
Come forth and whisper all your fears.
I will scream into this mic,
And when I'm done I'll leave u begging for more,
I'll make you a little show whore,
And what’s more I've just begun,
It'll be a little while before I'm done,
So hold on,
This is what the edge of your seat was made for,
We are the ones you adore,
Lighting up the stage,
Release all your rage,
In this pit.
I will feed it to the crowd,
I wanna hear you scream loud,
Push moshes aren't aloud,
Throw down or go home,
Before u get punched in the dome.
I will scream into this mic,
And when I'm done I'll leave u begging for more,
I'll make you a little show whore,
And what’s more I've just begun,
It'll be a little while before I'm done,
So hold on,
This is what the edge of your seat was made for,
We are the ones you adore,
Lighting up the stage,
Release all your rage,
In this pit.
Don't be a pussy,
Little wussie go home and cry to your mom,
I want this pit like Vietnam,
Like a war you can't control,
I want you screaming for more,
Now you’re a little show whore,
And I control you with this mic,
I'll make you dance when and how I like.
I will scream into this mic,
And when I'm done I'll leave u begging for more,
I'll make you a little show whore,
And what’s more I've just begun,
It'll be a little while before I'm done,
So hold on,
This is what the edge of your seat was made for,
We are the ones you adore,
Lighting up the stage,
Release all your rage,
In this pit.
You’re all my puppets,
I am your master,
Now I command you mosh faster,
Throw your bodies to the floor and for,
You all must bleed when I end this show.
I will scream into this mic,
And when I'm done I'll leave u begging for more,
I'll make you a little show whore,
And what’s more I've just begun,
It'll be a little while before I'm done,
So hold on,
This is what the edge of your seat was made for,
We are the ones you adore,
Lighting up the stage,
Release all your rage,
In this pit.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
Love is a sickness
When I see him smile,
All the memories come rushing back into my head,
The memories of a not so lonely bed,
I think I'm falling faster and faster for you,
What exactly am I supposed to do,
Give in or let go?
Please won't you let me know.
Love is a sickness,
It's consuming my soul,
Binding two people's half-heart's to make them one whole,
Love is a sickness,
I'm afraid I have all the symptoms,
Give in or let go,
It's the only thing I don't know.
I'm looking out the window,
Up to the stars,
Your face appears,
My god how I love you,
But how do I show you,
Words can't explain it,
Actions won't take it,
So please won't you come with me,
Come with me and you'll see.
Love is a sickness,
It's consuming my soul,
Binding two people's half-heart's to make them one whole,
Love is a sickness,
I'm afraid I have all the symptoms,
Give in or let go,
It's the only thing I don't know.
So now I've confessed and now I know,
I was meant for you,
Do u think I was too?
Now I'm falling so hard it hurts,
All other girls,
Fuck them,
They're all flirts,
That like to move around in their mini-skirts,
Getting low,
Acting like a hoe,
Not to mention giving it up at 13,
Just for some attention,
Not knowing.
Love is a sickness,
It's consuming my soul,
Binding two people's half-heart's to make them one whole,
Love is a sickness,
I'm afraid I have all the symptoms,
Give in or let go,
It's the only thing I don't know.
I've fallen so hard there's no getting back up now,
So please take my hand and show me how,
There's nothing to get in the way,
Of us now,
Of love now,
Please take my hand and show me how,
Doesn't this feel right now.
Love is a sickness,
It's consuming my soul,
Binding two people's half-heart's to make them one whole,
Love is a sickness,
I'm afraid I have all the symptoms,
Give in or let go,
It's the only thing I don't know.
I'm glad I'm sick now,
I wouldn't trade it for the world,
Love is a sickness,
Let’s let it consume us.
Love is a sickness,
It's consuming my soul,
Binding two people's half-heart's to make them one whole,
Love is a sickness,
I'm afraid I have all the symptoms,
Give in or let go,
It's the only thing I don't know.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
All the memories come rushing back into my head,
The memories of a not so lonely bed,
I think I'm falling faster and faster for you,
What exactly am I supposed to do,
Give in or let go?
Please won't you let me know.
Love is a sickness,
It's consuming my soul,
Binding two people's half-heart's to make them one whole,
Love is a sickness,
I'm afraid I have all the symptoms,
Give in or let go,
It's the only thing I don't know.
I'm looking out the window,
Up to the stars,
Your face appears,
My god how I love you,
But how do I show you,
Words can't explain it,
Actions won't take it,
So please won't you come with me,
Come with me and you'll see.
Love is a sickness,
It's consuming my soul,
Binding two people's half-heart's to make them one whole,
Love is a sickness,
I'm afraid I have all the symptoms,
Give in or let go,
It's the only thing I don't know.
So now I've confessed and now I know,
I was meant for you,
Do u think I was too?
Now I'm falling so hard it hurts,
All other girls,
Fuck them,
They're all flirts,
That like to move around in their mini-skirts,
Getting low,
Acting like a hoe,
Not to mention giving it up at 13,
Just for some attention,
Not knowing.
Love is a sickness,
It's consuming my soul,
Binding two people's half-heart's to make them one whole,
Love is a sickness,
I'm afraid I have all the symptoms,
Give in or let go,
It's the only thing I don't know.
I've fallen so hard there's no getting back up now,
So please take my hand and show me how,
There's nothing to get in the way,
Of us now,
Of love now,
Please take my hand and show me how,
Doesn't this feel right now.
Love is a sickness,
It's consuming my soul,
Binding two people's half-heart's to make them one whole,
Love is a sickness,
I'm afraid I have all the symptoms,
Give in or let go,
It's the only thing I don't know.
I'm glad I'm sick now,
I wouldn't trade it for the world,
Love is a sickness,
Let’s let it consume us.
Love is a sickness,
It's consuming my soul,
Binding two people's half-heart's to make them one whole,
Love is a sickness,
I'm afraid I have all the symptoms,
Give in or let go,
It's the only thing I don't know.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
12.3.10
You see the love
Once upon a time two teenagers loved,
They'd been through it all,
They'd pushed and shoved,
Only to find them,
Once again in each others' arms.
You see the love,
That’s consumed your soul,
You see the lights,
That's consumed you whole,
We are the only ones,
We see the lies,
That hide within her broken eyes.
It's no surprise that bitch did you wrong,
You give out gold,
Only getting coal in return,
Now you’re down to silver,
When will you ever learn.
You see the love,
That’s consumed your soul,
You see the lights,
That's consumed you whole,
We are the only ones,
We see the lies,
That hide within her broken eyes.
What once was love now destroyed,
You've been falling for much too long now,
Time to stand up,
Turn the coal into a diamond,
Forget this lost love for which you've longed,
She's chewed you up,
She's spat you out,
And after all this I never had a doubt.
You see the love,
That’s consumed your soul,
You see the lights,
That's consumed you whole,
We are the only ones,
We see the lies,
That hide within her broken eyes.
Stick to the three F's and no harm will come,
Remove your heart,
Make your feeling numb,
Remember life goes on,
Love doesn't really matter,
When all is said and done.
You see the love,
That’s consumed your soul,
You see the lights,
That's consumed you whole,
We are the only ones,
We see the lies,
That hide within her broken eyes.
After the love after the lights,
I found you asleep under the radiant city lights,
What has she done,
How far have you come?
It's cruel to take your home,
On these cold winter nights,
After all this pain,
All the fights,
I cannot believe that still.
You see the love,
That’s consumed your soul,
You see the lights,
That's consumed you whole,
We are the only ones,
We see the lies,
That hide within her broken eyes.
You see the love,
That’s consumed your soul,
You see the lights,
That have consumed you whole,
We are the only ones,
We offer truth
We see the lies,
That hide within her broken eyes.
You see the love,
That’s consumed your soul,
You see the lights,
That's consumed you whole,
We are the only ones,
We see the lies,
That hide within her broken eyes.
Within her broken eyes,
She told you nothing but lies,
Now you’re sitting here thinking,
I hope she dies.
You see the love,
That’s consumed your soul,
You see the lights,
That's consumed you whole,
We are the only ones,
We see the lies,
That hide within her broken eyes.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
They'd been through it all,
They'd pushed and shoved,
Only to find them,
Once again in each others' arms.
You see the love,
That’s consumed your soul,
You see the lights,
That's consumed you whole,
We are the only ones,
We see the lies,
That hide within her broken eyes.
It's no surprise that bitch did you wrong,
You give out gold,
Only getting coal in return,
Now you’re down to silver,
When will you ever learn.
You see the love,
That’s consumed your soul,
You see the lights,
That's consumed you whole,
We are the only ones,
We see the lies,
That hide within her broken eyes.
What once was love now destroyed,
You've been falling for much too long now,
Time to stand up,
Turn the coal into a diamond,
Forget this lost love for which you've longed,
She's chewed you up,
She's spat you out,
And after all this I never had a doubt.
You see the love,
That’s consumed your soul,
You see the lights,
That's consumed you whole,
We are the only ones,
We see the lies,
That hide within her broken eyes.
Stick to the three F's and no harm will come,
Remove your heart,
Make your feeling numb,
Remember life goes on,
Love doesn't really matter,
When all is said and done.
You see the love,
That’s consumed your soul,
You see the lights,
That's consumed you whole,
We are the only ones,
We see the lies,
That hide within her broken eyes.
After the love after the lights,
I found you asleep under the radiant city lights,
What has she done,
How far have you come?
It's cruel to take your home,
On these cold winter nights,
After all this pain,
All the fights,
I cannot believe that still.
You see the love,
That’s consumed your soul,
You see the lights,
That's consumed you whole,
We are the only ones,
We see the lies,
That hide within her broken eyes.
You see the love,
That’s consumed your soul,
You see the lights,
That have consumed you whole,
We are the only ones,
We offer truth
We see the lies,
That hide within her broken eyes.
You see the love,
That’s consumed your soul,
You see the lights,
That's consumed you whole,
We are the only ones,
We see the lies,
That hide within her broken eyes.
Within her broken eyes,
She told you nothing but lies,
Now you’re sitting here thinking,
I hope she dies.
You see the love,
That’s consumed your soul,
You see the lights,
That's consumed you whole,
We are the only ones,
We see the lies,
That hide within her broken eyes.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
6.3.10
the white light
Well it’s 1:34am when will you come back from the store,
More of this and I won't be around anymore,
Make your choice,
Win or lose it's life or death,
Lose me or save me.
I was supposed to be your baby,
Your child,
The love of your life,
When the doctor cut the cord he gave me the knife,
Now the powers' in my hands,
Give or take life.
I see a light,
god damn is that son of a bitch ever white,
Getting closer I'm running faster more than ever now,
Farther and farther and farther and farther away,
It's getting closer,
Now I'm tired and I'm scared,
This type of feeling cannot be compared,
To modern day technologies,
Won't somebody help,
Come and save me please.
The knife's a razor's edge,
Who ever knew skin was so thin,
Blood was so red,
And wrong was so right,
Life is the truth don't play into her lies,
It's it really that big a surprise,
Behind her spider webbed-glass eyes,
Was lost love,
Drugs and lies.
I see a light,
god damn is that son of a bitch ever white,
Getting closer I'm running faster more than ever now,
Farther and farther and farther and farther away,
It's getting closer,
Now I'm tired and I'm scared,
This type of feeling cannot be compared,
To modern day technologies,
Won't somebody help,
Come and save me please.
I need an angel more than ever,
God if you’re out there do me a solid and please make her stop it,
Tell that white is a losing fight,
She won't overcome it,
Now that she's done again and again and again and again and again.
I see a light,
god damn is that son of a bitch ever white,
Getting closer I'm running faster more than ever now,
Farther and farther and farther and farther away,
It's getting closer,
Now I'm tired and I'm scared,
This type of feeling cannot be compared,
To modern day technologies,
Won't somebody help,
Come and save me please.
This doesn't get easy,
This life-style is sleazy,
I've been running so hard my breathing is wheezy,
My knees are weak,
I'm gonna collapse,
She's picked the worst time to have her relapse,
I don't wanna do this,
Her decision is foolish.
I see a light,
god damn is that son of a bitch ever white,
Getting closer I'm running faster more than ever now,
Farther and farther and farther and farther away,
It's getting closer,
Now I'm tired and I'm scared,
This type of feeling cannot be compared,
To modern day technologies,
Won't somebody help,
Come and save me please.
You’re wasting away,
I fear you live to see Sunday,
90 pounds soaking wet,
Is any of this clicking yet?
You’re gonna lose your love,
Your house,
Money and life,
You might as well just grab a knife,
End it now,
Speak now or forever hold your peace.
I see a light,
god damn is that son of a bitch ever white,
Getting closer I'm running faster more than ever now,
Farther and farther and farther and farther away,
It's getting closer,
Now I'm tired and I'm scared,
This type of feeling cannot be compared,
To modern day technologies,
Won't somebody help,
Come and save me please.
Take me far away, I'm tired of running,
Sick of being scared,
Now I'm gunning,
For a new dawn,
I can't let this keep going on,
It's time to choose,
Make your move,
Think it through,
Love is and addiction too.
I see a light,
god damn is that son of a bitch ever white,
Getting closer I'm running faster more than ever now,
Farther and farther and farther and farther away,
It's getting closer,
Now I'm tired and I'm scared,
This type of feeling cannot be compared,
To modern day technologies,
Won't somebody help,
Come and save me please.
Your family's gone,
The white has won,
Why are you here,
You don't even care,
Both parents ,
How is that fair?
Tell me what am I to do,
I think I'm lost and I’m scared,
Now I'm running far beyond the air,
Past the stars and the moon,
I hope it's all over soon.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
More of this and I won't be around anymore,
Make your choice,
Win or lose it's life or death,
Lose me or save me.
I was supposed to be your baby,
Your child,
The love of your life,
When the doctor cut the cord he gave me the knife,
Now the powers' in my hands,
Give or take life.
I see a light,
god damn is that son of a bitch ever white,
Getting closer I'm running faster more than ever now,
Farther and farther and farther and farther away,
It's getting closer,
Now I'm tired and I'm scared,
This type of feeling cannot be compared,
To modern day technologies,
Won't somebody help,
Come and save me please.
The knife's a razor's edge,
Who ever knew skin was so thin,
Blood was so red,
And wrong was so right,
Life is the truth don't play into her lies,
It's it really that big a surprise,
Behind her spider webbed-glass eyes,
Was lost love,
Drugs and lies.
I see a light,
god damn is that son of a bitch ever white,
Getting closer I'm running faster more than ever now,
Farther and farther and farther and farther away,
It's getting closer,
Now I'm tired and I'm scared,
This type of feeling cannot be compared,
To modern day technologies,
Won't somebody help,
Come and save me please.
I need an angel more than ever,
God if you’re out there do me a solid and please make her stop it,
Tell that white is a losing fight,
She won't overcome it,
Now that she's done again and again and again and again and again.
I see a light,
god damn is that son of a bitch ever white,
Getting closer I'm running faster more than ever now,
Farther and farther and farther and farther away,
It's getting closer,
Now I'm tired and I'm scared,
This type of feeling cannot be compared,
To modern day technologies,
Won't somebody help,
Come and save me please.
This doesn't get easy,
This life-style is sleazy,
I've been running so hard my breathing is wheezy,
My knees are weak,
I'm gonna collapse,
She's picked the worst time to have her relapse,
I don't wanna do this,
Her decision is foolish.
I see a light,
god damn is that son of a bitch ever white,
Getting closer I'm running faster more than ever now,
Farther and farther and farther and farther away,
It's getting closer,
Now I'm tired and I'm scared,
This type of feeling cannot be compared,
To modern day technologies,
Won't somebody help,
Come and save me please.
You’re wasting away,
I fear you live to see Sunday,
90 pounds soaking wet,
Is any of this clicking yet?
You’re gonna lose your love,
Your house,
Money and life,
You might as well just grab a knife,
End it now,
Speak now or forever hold your peace.
I see a light,
god damn is that son of a bitch ever white,
Getting closer I'm running faster more than ever now,
Farther and farther and farther and farther away,
It's getting closer,
Now I'm tired and I'm scared,
This type of feeling cannot be compared,
To modern day technologies,
Won't somebody help,
Come and save me please.
Take me far away, I'm tired of running,
Sick of being scared,
Now I'm gunning,
For a new dawn,
I can't let this keep going on,
It's time to choose,
Make your move,
Think it through,
Love is and addiction too.
I see a light,
god damn is that son of a bitch ever white,
Getting closer I'm running faster more than ever now,
Farther and farther and farther and farther away,
It's getting closer,
Now I'm tired and I'm scared,
This type of feeling cannot be compared,
To modern day technologies,
Won't somebody help,
Come and save me please.
Your family's gone,
The white has won,
Why are you here,
You don't even care,
Both parents ,
How is that fair?
Tell me what am I to do,
I think I'm lost and I’m scared,
Now I'm running far beyond the air,
Past the stars and the moon,
I hope it's all over soon.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
exgirlfriend
Dear,
Ex girlfriend,
Girl I miss you,
I wanna kiss you,
I wanna be held tight in your arms,
Do you remember sleeping through our school alarms,
Just to be together,
I miss you more than ever now,
I'll wanna get you back but don't know how.
You’re gone,
And moved on,
But I can't and I won't,
I know what you wanna say,
But don't,
Just shut your eyes,
Go back to sleep,
You told me lies,
Now I hear the alarm,
I'll show you where you can put your charm.
You lied and I cried,
I heard the words,
And part of me died
I didn't try and stop it,
Even though I knew,
Just wait,
I'll find someone new,
Someone to love me,
And someone to hold me,
Someone that's better than you.
You’re gone,
And moved on,
But I can't and I won't,
I know what you wanna say,
But don't,
Just shut your eyes,
Go back to sleep,
You told me lies,
Now I hear the alarm,
I'll show you where you can put your charm.
All you gave to me was harm,
I miss the feel of something real,
Now pains the only thing I've got left to feel,
All this just seems so surreal,
All the fights all and all of the lies,
I saw that same sad look in your eyes,
I knew you were onto other guys,
When I said I love you all I got was sighs.
You’re gone,
And moved on,
But I can't and I won't,
I know what you wanna say,
But don't,
Just shut your eyes,
Go back to sleep,
You told me lies,
Now I hear the alarm,
I'll show you where you can put your charm.
Don't worry you'll get yours too,
I don't hate you,
Even though my hearts in two,
Tell me can you fix it?
What if we remixed it,
Ro a point where there's no more,
Hate,
Or lies,
No more demise,
To a place of ultimate highs,
No ground,
Now we're soaring,
I loved you more than,
I love myself,
More than more anyone else.
You’re gone,
And moved on,
But I can't and I won't,
I know what you wanna say,
But don't,
Just shut your eyes,
Go back to sleep,
You told me lies,
Now I hear the alarm,
I'll show you where you can put your charm.
A part of me wishes I was still on your arm,
But it just wasn't worth the harm,
Now I hear the alarm,
My mind is clear,
No longer do I live in fear,
Of loneliness,
Now I know,
I was made for such great success
You were just sarcastic excess,
Your useless
I'm so tired of your carelessness,
For anyone else,
But you,
Come down from your thrown,
I need back that loan,
On my heart.
You’re gone,
And moved on,
But I can't and I won't,
I know what you wanna say,
But don't,
Just shut your eyes,
Go back to sleep,
You told me lies,
Now I hear the alarm,
I'll show you where you can put your charm.
Well your gone and I'm glad,
Just wait till your little friend gets mad,
You'll feel all sad,
And do the same,
The way you treat love is such a shame,
You’re supposed to be a lady and show some grace,
In a crowd you just another face,
Without a name,
All guys are really just part of your game,
Step down,
Bow out,
I will extinguish your flame,
Now it's come the end of your game.
You’re gone,
And moved on,
But I can't and I won't,
I know what you wanna say,
But don't,
Just shut your eyes,
Go back to sleep,
You told me lies,
Now I hear the alarm,
I'll show you where you can put your charm.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
Ex girlfriend,
Girl I miss you,
I wanna kiss you,
I wanna be held tight in your arms,
Do you remember sleeping through our school alarms,
Just to be together,
I miss you more than ever now,
I'll wanna get you back but don't know how.
You’re gone,
And moved on,
But I can't and I won't,
I know what you wanna say,
But don't,
Just shut your eyes,
Go back to sleep,
You told me lies,
Now I hear the alarm,
I'll show you where you can put your charm.
You lied and I cried,
I heard the words,
And part of me died
I didn't try and stop it,
Even though I knew,
Just wait,
I'll find someone new,
Someone to love me,
And someone to hold me,
Someone that's better than you.
You’re gone,
And moved on,
But I can't and I won't,
I know what you wanna say,
But don't,
Just shut your eyes,
Go back to sleep,
You told me lies,
Now I hear the alarm,
I'll show you where you can put your charm.
All you gave to me was harm,
I miss the feel of something real,
Now pains the only thing I've got left to feel,
All this just seems so surreal,
All the fights all and all of the lies,
I saw that same sad look in your eyes,
I knew you were onto other guys,
When I said I love you all I got was sighs.
You’re gone,
And moved on,
But I can't and I won't,
I know what you wanna say,
But don't,
Just shut your eyes,
Go back to sleep,
You told me lies,
Now I hear the alarm,
I'll show you where you can put your charm.
Don't worry you'll get yours too,
I don't hate you,
Even though my hearts in two,
Tell me can you fix it?
What if we remixed it,
Ro a point where there's no more,
Hate,
Or lies,
No more demise,
To a place of ultimate highs,
No ground,
Now we're soaring,
I loved you more than,
I love myself,
More than more anyone else.
You’re gone,
And moved on,
But I can't and I won't,
I know what you wanna say,
But don't,
Just shut your eyes,
Go back to sleep,
You told me lies,
Now I hear the alarm,
I'll show you where you can put your charm.
A part of me wishes I was still on your arm,
But it just wasn't worth the harm,
Now I hear the alarm,
My mind is clear,
No longer do I live in fear,
Of loneliness,
Now I know,
I was made for such great success
You were just sarcastic excess,
Your useless
I'm so tired of your carelessness,
For anyone else,
But you,
Come down from your thrown,
I need back that loan,
On my heart.
You’re gone,
And moved on,
But I can't and I won't,
I know what you wanna say,
But don't,
Just shut your eyes,
Go back to sleep,
You told me lies,
Now I hear the alarm,
I'll show you where you can put your charm.
Well your gone and I'm glad,
Just wait till your little friend gets mad,
You'll feel all sad,
And do the same,
The way you treat love is such a shame,
You’re supposed to be a lady and show some grace,
In a crowd you just another face,
Without a name,
All guys are really just part of your game,
Step down,
Bow out,
I will extinguish your flame,
Now it's come the end of your game.
You’re gone,
And moved on,
But I can't and I won't,
I know what you wanna say,
But don't,
Just shut your eyes,
Go back to sleep,
You told me lies,
Now I hear the alarm,
I'll show you where you can put your charm.
© Becky Baillargeon 2010
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